Reach out to someone you trust in your immediate environment right now. Failing that, contact either of these organisations:
You can also talk with an online counsellor/therapist
once that crisis has settled and you're no longer suicidal
However silly it seems, I want you to write the kindest, most loving letter to yourself. It separates the problems from your core self - you are not your problem, there is far more to you than all that you are experiencing right now. Make sure you include the following:
And don't forget to download this emergency self-care sheet.
Contact your healthcare provider/physician as soon as possible.
Remind yourself 3 times a day of 3 things that you are grateful for. Research has shown that this really works*.
Commit yourself doing it every day for three weeks and then decide for yourself.
Do something kind for yourself and for someone else every day without expecting anything in return from that person.
Perhaps you are wondering: "what the hell...?!" But I am really committed to helping you with the best I can provide and let's face it: what have you got to lose?
So, dust yourself down and get cracking now. Take action - sitting on the sofa staring into nothing and constantly going over how awful things are, isn't going to help you.
Remember to be kind and patient with yourself, but set some firm expectations for action every morning, afternoon and evening.
I wish you all the best for your recovery and a happier future.
*Emmons, R. Why Gratitude is Good. Greater Good, 16 November 2010, via Greater Good.